Saturday, 28 April 2012

Let's Fly Away

I'm a planner. I'm careful, and I get scared easily. I rarely take risks, and I spend too long thinking about things, which often means I let opportunities pass me by. I'm comfortable this way, and I enjoy my life. But inside me I have an awful lot of dreams that I'm afraid might never come true, simply because they're a little too risky. This occurred to me only recently when I was thinking of how I was going to spend this Summer, and that thought scared me more than the idea of taking risks. 

That's when I decided I needed to do something about it. 

I'm young. If I don't embrace my life now, then I never will. I need to get past the fear of failure, and just go for it! There is so much that I want to do, so much of the world I want to see and experience. I mentioned that I'm going to Canada? Well that is the first little adventure I've decided to go on. I am traveling across the world on my own for the first time, and I'm going to experience life in Canada while taking care of children. I'm going to explore the city of Toronto, and it will be a wonderful Summer. I'm excited! The first step towards a more adventurous life. :) Wish me luck. x

Thursday, 26 April 2012

Happy List

I have way too many notebooks. One of them is dedicated entirely to little things that make me smile on a daily basis. The idea is that when I'm bored/ stressed/ just feeling a little bit down, I read through it and appreciate all the good things about my life. It never fails to make me smile. :) Here are a few things that have been making me smile lately.

+ Baby Taylor recognising herself in photos
+ Watched Beauty and the Beast
+ Icecream with Kate
+ Went to visit Nana
+ Sampson playing with a giant branch
+ New book smell
+ Painting with the kids
+ Tried to drink an espresso- ew! 
+ Skyping Raine and Liv
+ Half-price notebooks- love. 
+Made chocolate banana muffins
+Dean (age 5) fell asleep on my lap

Have a lovely day, and remember to appreciate the small things. :) 

With love, 

Wednesday, 25 April 2012

Monday, 23 April 2012


Have you ever just felt that you were meant to do something? Not because someone told you you should, or because society expects it of you. But because in your heart, nothing could seem more natural to you? 


I think I have always known that I was meant to be a mother. When I was little, baby dolls were always my favourite toy. As I got older, I was always fascinated by new babies, and I spent every second I could with them. I always loved the younger kids, and when I was finally allowed to babysit I just thought it was the coolest thing ever! I still do, babysitting is one of my favourite pastimes :) 

I've always been the same. And it just seems to get stronger and stronger the older I get. To most people, it just doesn't make sense that a college student should feel the way I do, I should be making the most of my freedom (which I most definitely am!), and the thought of being a mother should terrify me, as it does most of my friends. But I can't help it. 

These photos actually make my heart hurt, and I get an awful lump in my throat. I want it so badly. :) It defines me. It's the only thing I am really sure of, I am maternal. I'm supposed to be a mother, and if nothing else ever goes right for me, I won't care as long as I have the chance to be a mother someday. 

What do you dream of? :) 

Sunday, 22 April 2012

Hello, Old Friend!

Oh little blog, how I have missed thee. I know, I know, I deserve a good scolding for having neglected you so. I address you, my dear blog, as I doubt I have any actual readers left after leaving you for a month... If, by any chance, I have a reader or two left, then hello there! I have missed you very much. :) I always cringe when I see people posting about how they haven't posted in so long and I swore I would never do the same, because it is quite frankly... boring. And here I am, doing exactly that. Sigh.

A few buzz words to explain my prolonged absence? (Not that it will make a very interesting read) Exams, study, bleugh, job-hunting, success, goodbyes, going to CANADA! Yaaay. :) Happy dancing all around. Yes, I am off to Canada on May 5th to be an au pair (nanny) for three beautiful little boys for 4 months, I am so excited! :) I just have to finish my exams first. Booo.

Now, I apologise for this yucky boring post, it's just I like things to be in some sort of organised order, so I felt I had to write an explanation before I burst right into nice posts after a gap of 22 days. Well it makes sense in my head. Now, I will leave you with this llama, and get back to studying. And I  promise, I will have more posts from now on.

Thank you for understanding, dear blog!

Love always,